Bron-Yr-Aur Stomp

It's been a long day. Having a terminator marathon with rado last night wasn't a good idea. Watching commando after the marathon at 3 in the morning didn't anything good to the mix either. By the time we went to bed at 530 I was dead but the sleep was great if only my family didn't call every two hours to check in. We slept till 3 and got breakfast at Ihop it was superb. We then went to the gym and he's at his house showering now. He's staying with me all weekend since he can't be at his house really for too long since their putting in wood floors so we've been together for a while so far. It's now my only time alone and I'm so tired I can't even bring myself to jerk off. That is when you know you've hit rock bottom when you don't even have the energy to spank your dick. It's been like that a lot lately and it gets even worse that it's been so long since anyone since myself has touched my log.

I haven't had sex since february and it is driving me out of my fucking mind. I'm a sex-aholic. It's all I can think about besides alcohol. I need to have sex. It's been so long I've driven myself into my own diluted fantasies. I've watched so much porn in the past three months that I can't tell now in real life what's real and what's porno. The other day I ordered pizza and was offended when the lady didn't fuck me after giving me the pizza.

I tutor a girl at nassau for english and I am flabbergasted when she doesn't give me a blowie for helping her boost her grade up.

It's been a terrible three months of this. I need help. I'm a sex addict that can't find the absolution of even an ugly girl for me to put my dick in. It's quite a predicament. There's not much romance in beating your dick till it's beat red and out of cum. The worst is the fantasies are getting worse. It's not just about these random people anymore but just having a simple conversation with some of my very best friends turns into a sex fantasy for me.

Walking home drunk the other day I found myself fantasizing that Kim Arevelo would pull up to me. I told this fantasy kim that I would put out for a ride home. She drove me home and I put out alright. This simple fantasies become worse and worse as time goes on. I really fear i'm loosing my mind now from the lack of sex. I'm more and more detached from society as the days go on. If I don't fuck something soon I think my dick is going to fall off. 

I'm even going into fantasy's as I write this. I'm facebook stalking Brittany Goll and boom the fantasy kicks in. She messages me through facebook and reminds me of the time she liked me when i was in 12th grade cause I reminded her of pete wentz (ugh i hate that guy) and then she suggests we hang out again. We do and it's fabulous. It's all really getting out of hand.

I don't know how much longer palmala Handerson is going to work for me. Even blank jerking me off has lost its flavor. hahaha. yeah right. Well rado is on his way back over. time to stop jerking off to pictures of girls I want to fuck and go back to drinking this problem away.

Kisses. XOXOXO